Magdalene Murdered Alive On Earth, & Endlessly Repeating

July 22, 2010, Thursday

The fight to tell the Real Truth, never ends...

All Time is One Time.  All Love is One Love.

My own personal 'sacred' and psychic connection with 'Rainbow Serpent' who showed itself to my mind's 'eye' in Lucid Vision, between 1-3 pm on Saturday, January 9, 2010, as a Giant, Light-Being, ALIVE, Benevolent, Smiling, Joyful, Balancing of All Colors of Human Chakras, as a 'yin-yang' curve up the middle of our own Sun !  I was absolutely surprised, amazed, and overwhelmed by it's hugeness, intense colors, beauty and complete sense of immediate, loving, joyfulness.  

My 'psychic' enemies, laughed at me, that day, for my 3 months of magnetic enslavement, inability to move my body, due to my personal 'thermometer' (thyroid gland) being broken (in the dead of a very cold winter in Colorado), and my absolute physical paralysis from all the magnetic aberrations that humans have caused over the last 3500 years, especially.  

Here is a video report of the Science of 'Rainbow Serpent':

The viciousness and 'violentia' of Rome IS STILL GOING ON, but the 'Magdalene's' of Earth, are barely included in their own story, since it is 'not known,' or more likely, just not EVER told, or even acknowledged, for the politics of the patriarchal 'orders' sake...

What follows is an Article about this date, 7/22 being the Magdalene's Feast Day.  It just so happened to turn out that this Article mentions ALL the Numbers of my own Life, murdered alive by Child-Rape from the Catholic Church with its 'Guenevere' as 'Magdalene,' instead of the 'Real Blood' of the Magdalene's bloodline revered, and understood as a larger Earth - Physically & Psychically connected BEING, but rather, is raped in murder alive, and swept beneath the carpet, where no on can hear, see, feel, or even notice her enforced murder alive, OR more is the case, all CHOOSE not to understand, or care, much less, believe, even if backed-up with photos, and facts, all is ignored.

(My doctor's, dentists, and social workers are letting me die of my '17' infected, rotting teeth, that are poisoning my blood and organs, due to the complication of Graves Disease, an over-abundance of Thyroid Hormone that attacks the fine calcium in the body (first the Teeth, and then the Bones, prior to treatment.)  The treatment, Radioactive Iodine 131, takes about 2 years for the body to stabilize, and Thyroid Hormone must be replaced by prescription, thereafter.  This is now a 51 year process of their killing of me with child-rape, causing pituitary trauma, and subsequent long-term Hyper-Thyroidism, which when it is long-term, causes the more severe 'Graves Disease.'  My teeth complication is reparable, but since I have been unable to work, due to radioactive treatment sapping all of my energy, regularity of sleep pattern, headaches from the prescription, and blood-infection from the teeth that have been attacked by too much Thyroid T3 & T4 hormones, I have no money to pay for the teeth being extracted and fixed with dentures.  All inquiries on my part, have met with ignoring my pleas for help, & ON ALL FRONTS, nothing but hatred, mistaking me as my child-rapist, socially, and forcing me to 'write the book' they broad-cast from my 'in-k,' (magnetically), as all of my pens have become their female child-rapist 'fin-ger,' and outright lies and stupidity, toward me socially.  And their incessant, unrelenting RETRIBUTION against me for attempting to Tell the Truth, of ALL of this, Publicly.  I would guess these are the SAME NUMBERS utilized to 'identify' and kill ALL 'Magdalene' Bloodline Beings / Entities on Earth, if they incarnate here.  At the very least, they are the major 'numbers' of my own life, and the murder of all my own joyfulness, and genocide of all my soul-connections that I brought into this life.)

To me, from a friend, Thursday, July 22, 2010:  Magdalene's Feast Day

Walking On Water:

She came and spoke to me for the fourth time in my “knowing being”. I know her as Mary Magdalene. Her voice like silk through the ether's. She said to me; “Gloria..... 
Magdala..... Amygdala.”

This is the story of my life and the events that brought me to this sacred place, where knowledge, divine wisdom, and unimaginable love is freely shared. I have had many, many mystical experiences in my life, including my own death at the age of 17, and subsequent return to this good earth upon my own request.

I invite you to join me now, as I begin to share with you the series of mystical events that opened up the Kingdom of Heaven, on earth as it is in........................

.......and so it is

The Fish, (Age of Pisces, that Earth is now transiting from, into Age of Aquarius.)

Have you ever wondered why there are so many different ENERGETIC disorders around now that either did not exist or were extremely rare - as little as a decade ago? The number of cases of people diagnosed with Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, Lupus, and depression in every shape and form has grown exponentially over the last ten years. There was a time no one had even heard of Fibromyalgia, a crippling myofacial disease that strikes mainly women, and now 1 out of 20 women can expect to develop the disorder at some point in their life. Have you ever wondered why so many women (one out of every two) are taking an average of 1.5 psychotropics? Or why the number of cases of autism in children has jumped from 1 in 10,000 to 1 in 100 in a mere 20 years? Why all the energetic disorders?

I asked myself these questions – and more – to the point that my being became on fire. I knew there was a connection – a common cause or source for the myriad of energetic disorders that are crippling the human race at this point in time– but I couldn’t connect the dots. What is it that we are doing to ourselves to create the first decline in life expectancy? My body felt as if some electrical current had gone past the limit it could safely contain – as I strained toward that “knowing” I couldn’t quite reach. Couldn’t quite taste. Yet, it was at the tip of my comprehension, nibbling around the periphery of perception like so many fish on mossy dock pilings.

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I decided to pray and meditate about it.  Over the years I've learned how to 'ground’ myself when my being becomes “all fired up”: I anoint my body and inhale the oil of Spikenard, the same oil that Mary Magdalene used to annoint Jesus at the

home of Lazarus. This time, as always, the oil helped me to

anchor me being so that I could process the light body of information streaming through me.

That is when “she” came and spoke to my “knowing” being for the fourth time. She spoke to that part of me – which is in all of us - that receives and reveals information that is heard, felt, understood, and treasured - through the spiritual senses. From underneath – outward. I know her as Mary Magdalene. Her voice is like silk through the ethers. She said to me, “Gloria, Magdala. A m y g d a l a “.

That was all I needed to hear. Like Columbus’s ships sailing to shore in clear view, yet invisible to the natives because they lacked the matrix of consciousness needed to process the information – there it was – right in front of me all the time. The relationship was now clear. At first my body rocked with the profundity of the obvious. Amygdale literally translates to “almond shaped”. The Vesica Pisces formation, Holy of Holies, as is the Song of Solomon, or Soul of Man, the sun and the moon. This sacred geometry is the blueprint from which all other geometries spring. AMM-GD-ALA, My God Ala, or AM. OHM, Brahma, God, Allah, the trinity of spiritual belief systems in ONE. There is nothing we should be fighting over on this planet.

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The word “amygdala” (almond”), accurately describes the set of nuclei that neuroscientists refer to as the source of “divine inspiration”. Part of the limbic system, the ancient region of the brain that began to develop in fish over 500,000 years ago and then fully emerged in reptiles (also referred to as the “reptilian” brain) , the amygdala is the only area of the brain that has direct access to external stimuli through the sense of smell via the olfactory. All other brain functions process information from the senses only after it has been “filtered”.

Amygdala; Balance / inbalance; Secrets – truths revealed, symbols etc. – and why now ? Then tie it together with the
last paragraph.

Poor amygdalic functioning has been associated with anxiety, autism, depression, narcolepsy, post-traumatic stress disorder, phobias, and schizophrenia. Lesion studies with monkeys have shown that when the amygdala is impaired before six months of age, individuals have difficulty adapting to social life. This is because the amygdala is necessary not just for experiencing emotions like fear, but also for modeling and quickly recognizing the presence of these emotions in others. Thus a damaged amygdala has become associated with the condition of autism, or social-blindness.

“Magdala– AMYGDALA”

Here I insert some of Margaret Starbird's work on the Magdalene (In my opinion, anyone wishing to know more about Mary Magdalene, must read Starbird's groundbreaking and devotional work.)

At one of Margaret's workshops, she regaled the audience with the story of "153 fish" and the gematria for the Magdalene.

Mary Magdalene presents us the archetype of the "Earthen vessel filled with the Spirit," and her feast day, 22-7 reflects that understanding of her importance.

Now we will do the calculation for the area of the circle with the “7” radius. The formula is “pi” (22/7) times the square of the radius (7 x 7 = 49). 22/7 x 49 is 154.  If you use the alternative decimal version of “pi” (3.14) the result 153.86 is even more obviously connected to Mary Magdalene, because the Greek gematria of her title, “H Magdalhnh” actually adds up to 153.  So, using principles of sacred geometry in use at the time the Gospels were written, by virtue of her feast day (7/22) 
and the gematria of her honorific (153), she is shown to be the “Model” or embodiment of the human person as “sacred partner” of the Divine.

The "153" is highly significant as a symbolic number in the canon of the Greek geometers.  It is the denominator of the ratio used to represent the square root of 3 (265/153) and is a numerical abbreviation for the "Vesica Piscis" ()--the "Vessel of the Fish" or "Measure of the Fish."  This shape is the shared space when two circles are drawn together so that the edge of one passes through the center of the other." ~See: http://www.margaretstarbird.net/circles_.html

The Blue Rose....Alchemy

[ Insert: by this Blog's Editor:  Reference: See works by Paschal Beverly Randolph (October 8, 1825– July 29, 1875) was an American medical doctor, occultist and writer.  Randolph is notable as perhaps the first person to introduce the principles of sex magic to North America, and, according to A.E. Waite, establishing the earliest known RosicrucianUnited States [1]  (from Wikipedia)

I thought his book was called, 'The Rosicrucian Enlightenment,' in which it is told how women eventually do die from the germs associated with sexuality, especially those who are child-raped, and then reapeatedly 'whored' by the so-called 'men' in their lives, who have no intention of taking them seriously, and who cheat them out of real, mature, loving behavior.  (Do many men EVER 'mature,' I wonder ?)  Child-rape victims are not only physically, and psychically abused, but SOCIALLY ABUSED, not to mention, the bio- and magneto- and SOCIAL Parasiticism, that occurs to those who are child-raped.  (What gentleman these days would love a woman enough not to kill her with their togetherness sexually ?  Just THINK of those 'politics.') ]

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I have been sharing this information with my students now for several years. In the class I teach called: “Total Sensory Integration” ™ ©

We utilize the skills of Polarity, wonderful healing work by Randolph Stone. We learn to balance of the pairs of opposites. The amygdala being two almond shaped groups of nuclei located within the medial temporal lobes of the brain.

Why is this so important?   Let's look at a little Greek mythology.

"Plato wrote in his Symposium that humans have been looking for their soul mate ever since Zeus cut them in half. In his mythic story, Plato describes a world where there were men, women and people who were both men and women. Apparently, humans began discussing how they could climb up to heaven and replace the gods. The gods were upset by this and discussed what should be done. The simplest solution would be to destroy mankind, but Zeus came up with a better idea. He suggested cutting all human beings in half. This would serve two purposes. First, it would immediately double the number of people making offerings to the gods. Second, it would weaken the humans, so they would not be able to carry out their plan. Zeus' idea was accepted, and the humans were all divided into two. Naturally, the humans were upset at this, and Zeus decided to enable each half to have intercourse with their opposite, symbolically creating a whole. Consequently, the males sought their female half, and the females sought their male half, allowing them to reproduce."

I quickly realised that in balancing the pairs of opposites, becoming ONE Whole person unified....also required something called, Embedding,. I found that in my own life, embedding took place in my being, the 'knowing' and IN-sights came from caring, from the open heart. Every time I was given an insight, it was because I CARED AND ASKED FOR ANSWERS.

It was an open heart. It was the greatest of these, it was LOVE.

During another meditation, I saw the earth come spinning at me, while the narration in the background (hers) told me: “and the last shall be first and the first shall be last”...around the earth was written the name; EARTH (Just like the Universal Studio's Logo) and the H at the end spun off and rotated around the earth and became the first letter, now spelling HEART.

Then she said: The original name of earth was actually heart, until the 'key' fell out (here I am shown a triangle) and fear and chaos swept in.

In the gospel of Thomas, Jesus states: Jesus said, Many are standing at the door, but it is the solitary who will enter the bridal chamber. We must enter the BRIDAL CHAMBER? The heart is known to have 4 chambers. Once we enter in Love and service, in reverence, we stoke the flame in our heart - h entering the upper heart chakra which has the same resonance as the Earth. Entrainment.

This opens up the pineal gland or third eye, and yes, the eye becomes singular.

This is the doorway into inner dimensions and the central sun.

We have the two almond halves of the amygdala and the pineal, the trinity of the singular eye piercing through the veil of illusions, the 'key stone' to the Bridal Chamber, holy of holies.

“In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you.” John 14:2

Once one has the 'key', one can enter the Kingdom / Queendom of Heaven.

Jesus said to them, "When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner like the outer and the outer like the inner, and the upper like the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male will not be male nor the female be female, when you make eyes in place of an eye, a hand in place of a hand, a foot in place of a foot, an image in place of an image, then you will enter [the kingdom].

During these times, it is important for us to balance the pairs of opposites to navigate through our entrance into the age of Aquarius, the age of the return of the fisher king, the return of the Magdalene and the divine feminine.

The Magdalene is known as the patron saint of Alchemist's. The Baine Marie is named after Her.

Our limbic system, is the alembic to distill our base materia into alchemical Gold. I'm a genie in a bottle, baby. Look to the Tarot card, 'The Star' to see the alchemist of the Aquarian Age, queen Magdalene in her distillation process of turning us into 'angels of man', on the fixed cross

Next: The Astrology of the Ages

Vesica Pisces

Editor's Note: It is my belief, that it is the stories themselves in spiritual traditions which were important, not any one particular belief or faith. All traditions teach us how to access our highest self. <3

The Holy Grail

My Comments For This Post Given to Me, 7.22.10, Thursday:

1)  Kim:  It is a blessing you gave this to me, Gloria. These are completely, ALL the major NUMBERS in and of, my own life, that have been completely and totally torn asunder, in TOTAL. All of their natural progression has been Usurped & Destroyed, for theft, selfishness and Use. I cannot Care-y the 'inhumanes' who have done this, since they are using the energy as a 'commodity,' in total oblivion, disrespect, and thoughtlessness of the One, in All.

2)  Kim:  The Catholic Church are voracious, vicious killers, 
in fact, murderers, of the 'sacred' for their Use, dissemination, and excuses to Continue in the Same manner. Why shouldn't One do ALL the suffering for mankind's misperceptions, and outright misbehaviors at the 'top.' Shall we call it that ?


3)  Kim:  My choices have been Only: 'enforced suicide,' or 'murder.' And that is STILL, all I have right now, amidst the 'powers that be.'


Gloria's Reply: 

Kim, you are welcome and very glad to hear that you feel it was a blessing.  As for the church, well they are an interesting breed, especially with those pretty red leather shoes and I agree that it is criminal to have hidden the truth of the divine feminine to create such a state of imbalance on planet earth and in us.  I don't think all are criminal, I don't think they even know themselves.  I am not sure what you mean about suicide...not liking the sound of that at all.  Blessings to you Kim, I hope all is well with you. ♥

4)  Kim:  Yeah, 'In' ME, my body, with their criminal 'guenevere' Fin-ger, german, germs, and I'm dying from it, their 'fin-ger-NAIL,' of a demon-dyke 'guenevere' look-alike, when I was only age '3' (for 3rd dimension), with nothing but hatred from ALL of their 'doctors.' The Pope visited me today, again, glaring me down, and me glaring back... 'Family' that are Stupid, and Care Not. All of them are criminal Pedophiles, and That is how they look for 'proof' of 'god,' with Murder, By The Numbers, NO LESS... (And they make SURE it can't be heard, and is swept under the 'car-pet.' Talk about 'oil,'... They know Exactly what they are doing.) ;(

Gloria:  Are you ok?

July 22 at 6:57pm

5)  Kim:  No Gloria, I'm NOT OK... They are enforcing my murder-suicide because they won't pull my 17 teeth left, complication from Life-long Graves Disease, caused by child-rape, (Pituitary Trauma, causing HYPER-Thyroid), of which they have been letting me die for 10 long years, even after treatment, the rotting teeth, now poisoning my blood, and infecting my vital organs.  I visited the DDS for 3 roots-left-only, yesterday, and the 'music' made her put me off for 2 more weeks of pain and penicillin, after 2 1/2 years of trying to find and get help for the teeth.  I'm in so much pain, I can't leave my room. The Pope is NOT 'spiritual,' he is ONLY Psychic, and an imbecile of torture, at that. [He's so stupid, he put 'W' in my face 6 months ago, showing me why his nickname is 'W,' because he can commit infanticide with a 'flick of his 'Wrist.' I was horrified... And 'W' is one of the few 'gentlemen' they've got, but ALL of them are So In-The-Box Stupid, FOR MONEY & 'Power' that is Stolen via their Murders and Rapes of Babes, over CENTURIES of 'blood-line' fighting, and cross-breeding.  (I'm a real 'throw-back,' much to their ignorance & even chagrin, being born under the 4 Equal Side 'numbers' of the Great Pyramid, (756.2 cubits each side,) & pointing to the 'Jesus Star,' (! ! !) as I was, and WHY they raped me with 'Guenevere's' 'fin-ger,' to avoid blame for WWII...  when I, as 'Amelia,' was already 'dead' for the whole of WWII.  AND THAT I HAVE FOUND ALL THIS OUT, as a result of 2 solid years of searching for answers as to Why they would rape me, such a good soul, and doing SO MUCH WORK FOR EARTH 2012 transitions, magnetically, and psychically, that has taken ALL my time, energy, effort, with no pay or recognition AT ALL from any of 'them,' except compassionless hatred, and insistence they have a 'right' to murder me alive, without any remorse, or restitution.

I've had to put up with Psychic HORRORS from them ALL. It's been UN-Believable. Them, (dark 'pope,' light 'pope,' Donald Trump, 'W,' Dick Cheney, Obama stealing my sacred prayer with Rainbow Serpent 2 weeks ago, ETC. It's been nothing short of Satanic. Them, NOT KNOWING wtf I am, a gold-space ship, that they want to stick their 'finger' in, plunder, and I flew off, 10 miles into 'space' to prevent their thieving, grasping, finger in me... This has been going on with them and me solidly since they 'elected' the current pope, presidents, ON ME, via 'sex magic' 'dick' via their 'fin-ger voodoo,' for me consciously, since 1992.  No one CAN, or IS helping me...  And no one KNOWS, But Me...  There's the rub.  How many lifetimes must I suffer and die for their PARTY ? ? ? ? ? ? ?  Control, and NON-Benevolence ?  I CAN NOT CARE-Y Them.  They must Change.  I have no resources.  I have no recourses, but to endlessly do the spiritual / material / universal balances and corrections FOR THEM, where they REFUSE.  They crucify the 'sacred' on a daily basis, and HIDE THE FACTS that they are using our souls for their False 'Power', 'Control,' & Especially, their Materialities.  I apologize to U, Gloria, for spilling these True, but Awful 'Truths'. [I am their 'gladiator,' and Russell (he looks like my own brother, and we are quite alike in similar predicament with this 'Church' of Hell, depicted in 'Gladiator,') helped me as much as he could, yesterday.  The 'light' Pope, 'family' tho' he may be, is still a rapist of his own 'daughter' with a demon-dyke, so they can continue their False World Bloodline Rulers...).  But they are MANY, and they are such evil stupidity, that I am unable to cope, on a daily basis, much less face coming back here to Earth to work for them, in endless rape and sorrow, ever again.]  ;(( 

Gloria replied: 

Kim,
I am so sorry to hear that you must suffer through all this.
This may not mean much, but we are eternal beings and this is a 'flash' of time, this life we all have.
 
I agree, the pope is evil, there is no question in my mind.
I pretty much agree with most of what you said, but will have to reread this when I have more time to think.
AS it is, I am late for an appointment already and must run.
I will pray for you.
 
There is the light, the truth and the WAY, it has been obfuscated and diluted and far, far worse to be sure.
Until I can return to read this,
I send healing/reiki energy to you.
Blessings
glow 

July 22 at 7:44pm

6)  Kim said:  He is 'Ben' as our father, (my Nephew, 'Ben,' by my father-brother 'Bruce-Wayne' in real life), are BOTH Catholic 'Ben' & Federal Ban-'K' Jewish 'Ben,' not realizing they are killing their own daughter and son, ALIVE... over ALL these centuries of fighting over 'bloodlines,' and because dad's ambitious, forced to be so, amidst all of them, has forgotten himself in these 3500 years of Ambition, and is himself, in their Illuminati Games of 'survival of the inner-circle,' while they rape the 'Magdalene' to Mars, Saturn, & Neptune... and don't EVER clue her in, NOT EVER.  (Over the 3500 years since my enforced murder-suicide in ancient Japan, and from which, in this life, I have re-met the same 3 souls who enforced it then, now full-on ass-covering Catholics, and raping me INTO the Catholic Church now, after 2,000 years of keeping me OUT of it.  And YET, they are STILL my murderers ? ? ? ?  The male of the 3 souls (the other 2 are female), is 'The 7th Son of the 7th Sun', Lou Reed AS Louis Carroll (!) 'Alice-Guenevere,' (while I kick her rapists out of the Sun FOR HER !  Do you think she could ever do me the same favor ? ?)  AND Buckingham-Nix, AND 'The Buckingham's,' ALL as Bart Buchalter, back-stabber to my whole adult life...)  Do you think they did not spend the last 2,000 years STEALING the ease toward 4th Dimension from 3rd, and BEYOND from Mankind on Earth, and without Heart ? ? ?  And are NOW CONTINUING IT by murdering, and genociding me AGAIN ? ? ?

'Dad' is enjoying himself with his own daughter's 'grail bloodline' 3500 year old murderers, who laugh at us, and care not one single iota for our suffering, and ALL are in TOTAL CONFUSION, while 'partying' on our souls very WORK, and LYING TO US, confusing us on purpose, and shoving us into a hell-hole to work for them FOR HOW MANY LIFETIMES TO 
COME ? ? ?

Thanks for the u-nderstanding, Gloria.  It's taken me 51 years to figure out why they tore Tibet asunder, with my Rape, and then force me to sit here doing 'magnetic monk' for them, husband-less, child-less, mother-less, father is an Imbecile-Murderer, who does not know himself, doesn't WANT to, 'can't know himself,' and all my 'friends' look like, and stupidly, insensitively, unthinkingly, ACT like various versions of my child-abuser. Then, this Pope told the Dalai Lama it was MY fault, in their soul-trading, child-RAPING Dyke-Fin-ger LIES, when I was personally BORN looking 'Chinese' and DOING the Flower of LIFE for myself: 1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness, 
3) Benevolence, 4) Equality with all of Life = Justice, 5) Courtesy, WHICH THEY NEVER DO.  'Bart' currently, wants ME to personally PAY for ALL the past 3500 years of Asian History, TOO.  (So he can keep his position with Sirius, and other connections.  Do you think he will EVER stop stabbing me in the back ? ? ?  I don't think he even COULD STOP.  He certainly won't stop his black & white 'Milky Way' Ownership of the Great Central Sun, with Demon Cabriolet-Taxi's, who don't want 'taxes,' while we have NOTHING, and they have EVERYTHING, because they raped and murdered us...

And no one is stopping him, or her.  And I don't have any strength or even social understanding to stop him.  He's a USER, all by the numbers, no feelings at all, and constantly stealing 'love and 'sexuality' from me, with nothing BUT endless hatred, and non-tolerance for MY preferences, which I am not allowed, and can't even FIND in this enforced genocide of myself, my fellows and our resonant frequencies they are stealing, and murdering from us...)  

How can I care-y them, when even the simplest word, 'sincerity' makes no SENSE to any of them, Especially NOT BMW 735, silver Alfa Romeo, turned Z3-4 Bart, and Especially not Dumb 'Dad,' who's so self-important, so deeply ensconced in ALL directions of this EVIL, that he's got himself into enough confounding trouble that he wants ME to Explain 'Satan' Bart, to all 'gods' in the sky, and Sirius, who are the result of this 3500 & 26,000 year old murder of me, BY Bart, who conveniently, 'doesn't remember' ?  Yeah, and I'm supposed to argue all 'Ben's' cases, in 'heaven,' while Bart & unwitting Dad and Brother, let 'mother / babysitter - strangers' stab me in the u-know-what, with 'Guenevere' on Earth...  And ALL of these 'Races / Blood-lines' FIGHT over WHO can ENSLAVE &/or OWN, the REAL Blood of the Magdalene on Earth, YET HIDE THE FACT, even from the Real Magdalene Blood that they are Usurping and USING for Wars, Weather,  Politics, and everything inbetween...   I'm sorry too... ;/ k. 

Kim said:  For the Record:  I did NOT come into this incarnation, all the way from 8th Dimension, and 3500 years of work, that is now resulting in repeated confusion and clean-up, for me, and everyone else from here to Sirius & Andromeda, NOT TO tell the whole TRUTH, stop my own suffering, and that of Earth's, and be finished with it ALL, IN ONE LIFETIME.  I've had enough of my personal enslavement, and torture and murder, and enforced suicide, absolute horror, without any compassion or feelings of Love toward me from anyone in my life.  I did NOT spend 51 years retracing 26,000 years, NOT to FINISH THIS Evil, Hateful, Story of Falsity among humans, IN TRUTH, Once and For All TIME, and in All of my own 'dimensions.'  I've had ENOUGH of the misbehavior of this planet, toward itself, and toward me, that IS affecting everywhere and ALL 'Dimensions' of Peace, with hateful non-doing of their OWN WORKS, and raping it from others INSTEAD, to 'advance' themselves where they have not earned.  I have been ILL with FEVER from this infection of these '17' teeth, with NO HELP, NO CARE, and NO CONCERN, NO Finances OR resources, and nearly unable to even THINK, due to ALL THE PSYCHIC INTERFERENCE IN MY LIFE FROM THE 'Powers That Be.'  They are daily threatening me with homelessness, as I write THIS.  It has been a Horror, BEYOND my WILDEST DREAMS, a Repetition of a 3500 year old enforced murder-suicide.  When WILL IT END ?  When will the FALSE 'his-her-story' and the rape-murders & endless inhuman(e) wars OVER, & among 'blood-lines' and 'importance' without reverence at all for anyone, or Earth, END ?

Sincerely yours, kim (embarrased beyond BELIEF, but telling the truth, ANYWAY...)

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See Also:  Wayne Herschell's Site, http://www.thehiddenrecords.com/forbidden_starmap.htm  
for further information on the 'Great Pyramid' and World Pyramids, and the site has a very large volume of information, beginning at:  http://www.oneism.org

 

 

 

 

 

Funny Names For Duat / Dwat / Bardo Monsters Who Are Part of God-Self :)

Or, laughing at who's not who !   ar-ar-ar-ar-ar :)

Shut-up ! NOW ! infinite monsters :)  lol !  How dare you think so highly of yourselves !  I've no time to give for these lying, magnetic abherrancies !  You are absolutely abhorrent to yourselves and me, you liars and thieves... :)  What's sa matta u ? Lost your vocabulary ?  Bring IT, you sssssslithering filth...  We'll see who's got the kinder snake...

One is BOTH feminine and masculine...  Why ?  Were you planning to steal one ?

Huh !  How pretty !  :)  Stay just where you are !  I'll keep my ground, too !  No more fuzzy, soft, white lights...  I don't NEED another 'life' !  hmmf-hmmf  :))

Big-Black-Hole-Eyed Hairless Monster, lol !  Here's some flyin' gold-needle-lights for your big-black-lightless-selfish-psychotic-eyes... Heyyyy, you can see the light now !  :)

Brass-Knuckles upside Both Your Jaw-Bone-Cheeks, You Hapless, Godless, Faithless, Freak ! :)

Keep Your Fingers To Yourself, YOU THIEF ! :)  Hey, Need a Nail-File ?  lol, lol, lol :)

Earth ?  It's full of liars, who forgot how to tell themselves the truth and face it, and forgot how to be kind to one another...

Knock, knock !  WHO'S THERE ?  Bigger Love Than You, my Friend...

I may be you, but you are definitely not me ! hmf-hmf-hmf, hmf-hmf-hmf... Too bad...  Strike at will...  :)

OHHHHH ~  aNother, disHonorable, neEdy, infinite taker-raper and not to mention LIAR !  What ? You were tryin' to think ?  I'm tired of waitin' already !

~ curly:  from larry, moe & curly :))

Fearless, Fearless, Unconditional LOVE !  Now, THAT'S MY kind of 'god' !  :)

Hi, Funny !  lol :))

3D: I don't need your psychopathic physicalities and confused social imbalances anymore.  Don't call me...  I'll call you... ;/

One doesn't mind being alone...  Just gets a little lonely, sometimes... Better than an hellish, ignorant, CROWD !  And a lot quieter, too. :)  Ah, real truth and oneness: INTERNALLY.  Fine by me, light-stones so big, extending on forever, definitely not 'mo' better, just more peaceful...

One's finished proving somethin' to nothin' !  Go find yourself some other patsy, IF YOU CAN !  Ah'm just fiiiiine and happy...  let 'em blow themselves to smithereens, nazi queens...  hmp-hmp-hmp-hmp-hmp...  one day they may find they've awakened...  but then, one day, may NEVER come to them, hell-bent on blame, and infinite cruelty...  They Don't Need One...  And One, DOES NOT, need them... ;/

One sees simple joys: flowers, dragonflies, and honorable, royal lions who don't bite, and who are not cowardly, floating waves, in both directions, peace symbols up and down, figures of 8 and infinities going on forever, reptile skins, orwellian, rectanglian glasses that never SEE enough to become tolerant and loving of self, and toward other as best one can, tolerant of feelings, instead of misperceptions, and destructions...  One no longer needs to see 'tangles' that One must untangle, for these imbeciles, who put their own shoes on One's feet, any more...  One will NEVER FORCE ONE...  if One has no loving freedom, and gives none...  'Orwellian's' don't need their glasses, nor black-hole eyes, if they still can't see through to tolerances toward all with non-harms, anyway...  Remove One from Earth FOREVER...  Her people have been so unpleasant and so intolerant, for so long, they've lost their way...  One will always remember her real nature, and nurture, to one, with love; she's always in One's heart.   Life and Love are Forever.  >|<

Thanks to Andrew Monkman, on Facebook, for his wonderful depiction / drawing of an extended 'Flower' of Eternal Life:  You & Your Preferences, DO MATTER.  They are the Love you were created with.  Let it BE.. And do not interfere with another's self-love seeking, when you know you are...  It's pretty simple...  Look for the good in yourself, see the good outside yourself, do the good within, and out, as best you can.  Love who and what you love, and walk away from what does not love you back... :~)  

One can utilize this for Contemplation / Meditation, and utilize the 'mind' to scoop it transparently through all 3D objects, (solids, liquids, gases), and beyond, Orbs / Planets / Stars, or places on the Earth, for healing them. :)  Place Bright Chakra Colors in this Flower Of Life for any specific uses. (Thanks Andy Monk for this wonder-filled drawing ! :)

all my thanks go to my friends at facebook, blessings to all of you, and your preferences, for you.

~lotusalivelight

The Emerald Tablets of Thoth

Why I'm ASHAMED TO BE ON EARTH !

May 14, 2010, Friday

Alright, I've Had ENOUGH 

of Being USED
by the Nazi Regime 

of Child-Rapers 

AND
POLITIC WORLD DISORDER

Let it be said for the RECORD, that I despise the CATHOLIC CHURCH OF NAZI SEX-MARAUDER RAPISTS FOR THEIR WORLD POLITICS OF RAPE AND MURDER....  I am so sick of this life of BULLSHIT, of mine that has become WORLDWIDE PROBLEMS, and THROWN ON MY BACK, and all the rotten Political AND Social HORRORS, including my murder alive, that has been going on with regard to me: A Mother (J-Belligerent-BullShit-Scorpion-Janet-J-fucked-K, kim, me, with a 'bang-finger' jfk, FILTH, killing me with him...), who rapes her daughter with a 'stranger-at-MY HOME, demon-dyke finger' causing ME to be forced to face the 'karma' of the abuser, instead of my OWN, and a Father and Brother who none-the-wiser, carry on their Bruce-Wayne-Robin-Ben (my families NAMES) lives, while spending 50 years unknowingly raping their own family member ALIVE, to DEATH, in denial and FALSE HIS-HER-STORY; a brother and father, who continually rape their own daughter & sister, FOR External / Material POWER, stolen from INTERNAL 'Power' that has simply CHOSEN to align with Creation, NOT Destruction, and who CARE NOT, 'SEE' not, that they are doing this:  (Satan's LIES AND RAPE are represented in my life by ALL German & Italian Cars, & ALL 'Foreign' Cars, especially, SAAB-Social-As-pen-penis-social-rape after the 1996 failed Election, in my life), and the effects of the child-rape that started it.  I am FINALLY here, now telling ALL OF YOU the CRAP that has gone on with regard to me, AND that has caused TONS OF WORLD PROBLEMS TO BECOME SO BLATENTLY APPARENT TO ME, so that perhaps there is the hope, that one shining non-world-order-day, it will become apparent to YOU, enough so that YOU can help me STOP IT, ALL OF IT, with your Honor (Honesty), Care (Benevolence toward all of Life, in Balance & Wisdom, NON-USURPMENT), and your Trust that doing these things brings LIKE RESPONSE from Nature, the Universe ITSELF.  Your RESPECT OF ONE ANOTHER'S LOVES, and LIVES, and YOUR NON-FOLLOWING OF BABY-RAPE REGIMES, of theft of personal soul and LIFE-ENERGY, REAL LIFE-ENERGY, MAGNETICS, that NONE OF US CAN SEE, BUT THAT IS THERE WITH ALL OF 'Creation' as we experience it in 3D, IS REQUIRED, to stop harming YOURSELVES.  

I'VE HAD MORE THAN ENOUGH OF THIS DISHONEST BULLSHIT ON MY BACK WITH THIS GENERATION OF INHUMANE BEINGS, TO LAST ME A THOUSAND LIFETIMES...

Over the past year alone, I've been forced to deal with the following personalities PSY-KICK-LEE (psychically):::::: The current 'Ben' Pope, (both the White 'Light' and 'Dark' Popes), Donald Trump, Ben Bernake, 'W': George W. Bush, Dick Cheney, Tom Hanks, Russell Crowe, (and his wife who looks and behaves like my child-abuser 'female'...and Russell himself, who looks like my little brother...), Andy Garcia, Andie MacDowell, (two twittering canaries, that they are...), Gwyneth Paltrow, (pirhana chewing on my FACE), Kevin Spacey, Viggo Mortensen, NASA, The Moon, The Sun...  and this is, not to mention, my mother, the chief of police who brought her, and my own two lovers, who have caused catastrophies with their mis-perception of ME, and infidelity toward me WITH that misperception, that was caused BY the INFIDEL of their own DISHONESTY TO BEGIN WITH (!): 1)  the Iraq War, with his infidelity to me, and the other lover who caused BOTH the 2) T-SUE-U-NAME-I (Bart's-crap), and 3) Her-Rich-Rick-Anus Hurricanes, with HIS infidelity to me, AND HIS GIRLFRIEND, the horror IDIOT bitch, as well, and ALL COMING FROM THE SUN, Sun Valley Corporation, and Sinclair Oil, a problem that began for me in 1992.  {Do the 'St. Clair / Sinclair's' SOUND FAMILIAR TO ANY OF YOU TEMPLAR 'Scot' FANS ???}  And none of YOU seem to be TALKING, and TRUTH-SAYING, which is what the Sirius-Rising Blue Throat Chakra IS FOR ! ! ! ! ! !  WHY THE FUCK NOT ? ? ?  HOW COME IT ONLY FALLS UPON ME, TO TALK TRUTH  ? ? ?  Could it be because NO ONE is doing TRUTH to Belligerence, because they don't want to give up their positions, to REAL TRUTH ?
That seems to be the TRUTH.


And it's been SO FREAKING BUSY, that I don't even remember if that is ALL who have visited me PSYCHICALLY OVER THE PAST YEAR.  (I will correct this, if I remember any more.)  It's NOT FUNNY, and I'M REALLY ANGRY ABOUT IT...  MY MURDER ALIVE, AND NO ONE STOPPING IT, YOU IGNORANT, LOW-LIFE, FILTH ON EARTH, who allow lies, live in lies, and with lies, and who do not protect the weak, that thereby causes YOU to receive unseen, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, and TOLERANCE, because you have GIVEN IT = 'Power.'  That kind of 'power' is UNIVERSAL...  ALL LIES, lead to social and physical aberrations IN 3D, and that's just physical LAW.

(My 1st Nephew is 'Ben,' and my 2nd Nephew is 'Jack,' by my brother, Wayne.  I have no husband, and no children, thanks to child-rape.)

It is the result of my child-rape that has caused these occurrences in my life, and for NO GOOD REASON, other than I have psychic abilities to kick satans hordes out of the Sun, and did so last week, kicked out one of his rapist demons on a gold throne OUT, anyway...  And he 'FELL' to earth, boo-ga-looing, like an ancient Mayan Tribal murderer...  It was a joke that I should HAVE TO DO THIS FOR OTHERS, when these are NOT MY OWN DEMONS ! ! ! !  But he's 'baaack' as the Satanic FORD CORPORATION, as the Catholic Church.  Who else would own the Tesla Patents, except FORD, the magnetic, Catholic Church of 2000 years of Patriarchal baby-fuckers...

Unfortunately, it SMACKS of the filthiest of SEXUAL MARAUDERS AND LIAR, TRICKSTER, SEDUCING RAPISTS, AND LIAR BACK-STABBERS, WHO HAVE NO HONOR, AND NEVER HAVE HAD ANY HONOR, THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, who DO BROADCAST THE RAPE OF SOULS, and incredulously, almost all the people in the world are 'FOLLOWING' THIS RAPING MURDER OF THE GOOD, BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO, for Money and mere Survival ! ! ! The Rapes and Murders ARE MAGNETIC, AND SO IS THEIR BROAD-CASTING, AND SO IS THE EARTH, GET IT ? ? ?  And ALL OF YOU FOLLOW THEIR NAZI BOX OF THIS ENDLESS RAPE &

FALSE HIS-HER-STORY, FALSE 'LEADERSHIP' & GENOCIDE & MURDER ! ! !  Call it whatever you will... blame, retribution, IT'S ALL FALSE, AND YOU ARE KISSING SATAN'S ASS FOR ANOTHER ROUND OF HAVING TO PAY SATAN BACK.  If you don't think it's true, you're fooling yourselves, YOU IDIOTS.  And you ALL better knock it off, and start trusting and caring about ALL of one another, ON YOUR HONOR, and NOT ON SOME NAZI BOX-FOLLOWING RAPE AND MURDER, OF BABES NO LESS ! ! ! GET IT ???  [I hate this earth of complete and total MESS, and THAT is NOT LIKE ME, AT ALL.  I was WAYYYY too advanced, joyous in my work, AND in self-made FREEDOM, for the Demon Rapist Filth on this planet...]  And all of who I was, was made jealous of, rather than EMULATED.  All joys are PERSONAL.  'God', the Universe and beyond, IS PERSONAL.  If you steal from it, the Law of 'Equal and Opposite Reaction' results eventually, and inexorably from your own ACTIONS.   Treat it all with Respect, as best you can, then you begin to understand what Respect IS, as 'IT' comes BACK...  UNSEEN...  AND GREATER...  Always relinquish your love to the greater physics of the Universe...  Doing that is humility to Unconditional Love, or 'god.'  It will NEVER HURT YOU, if you are TRUE.

I couldn't possibly even BEGIN to FOLLOW the satanic-360-degrees of FINGER-DYKE NAZI RAPE, PANDAMONIUM OF IGNORANCE, and it's subsequent BROAD-CAST murder THAT HAS BEEN HANDED TO ME BY ALL OF YOU WHO DO FOLLOW THEIR CRAP...  AND KISS SATAN'S ASS...  DO YOU THINK YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO PAY HIM BACK ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?  AGAIN ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

I tried once to 'follow' the 'lead' but it ENSLAVED ME TO WORK FOR IT, THE LESSER, and ALL I EVER GOT FROM IT FOR THE PAST 22 YEARS, SINCE the 1987 'Harmonic Convergence' I MIGHT ADD, IS RAPE AND LIES, AND PEN-IN-K-WRITE IT DOWN, ITALIAN- J-Jesus-James-Joseph-Jew-Janet (my mother's name) as the WHOLE CONSTELLATION OF SCORPIO, clean up our mess for us with your Chinese Taoist Works and Karma, ENFORCEMENT OF SAME with  - BillVeeck-PeterVeeck-WillVeeck-Ellen-ChuckVeeck-CharlesChase & WilliamMerrittChase (a teacher to Georgia O'Keefe, and who has a painting in the White House, no less, -ChuckCherryDianeDianaWoodson-HelenChuckReevis-HelenDickTonnemaker-DickAnderson-Tony-Michael-LauraLaNasa-Donna 'Rice' INCEST FILTHY DYKES of the CATHOLIC theft of MY WEDDING, TRUE LOVES, AND WHOLE LIFE, with nothing but CATHOLIC RAPING MURDERERS, who BROADCAST IT, and LIE ABOUT IT, and then, rape me with Saab-Social murder and theft of my WHOLE LIFE as 'ZERO,' by satan-BartBuchalter-Andrew-As-pen-penis-ViggoDen-MarkLaw-Social-RUIN, of not only MY LIFE, BUT THE WHOLE WORLD, WITH ME.  Bart look-alikes are EVERYWHERE (V-isa) THAT I GO.  HE FOLLOWS ME AND BACK-STABS ME, EVERYWHERE. CAN YOU SEE THESE NAMES REFERRING TO WHAT 'SATAN's' WANT ? ? ?  (RICH-($), DICK-(sex), and then the (BILL-(For Satan's PARTY,) no less, am I, and YOU PAYING, with 'Fart-wind' Dick-Daley-Daily Chicago-Endless-MAFIA'S of corruption, to boot, and ON ME, of ALL PEOPLE.)  How do you like the Helen-Diana FINGER-DYKE-CULT, SO FAR ? ? ?
Everywhere I go, my child-abuser accuses me of her own SINS, which DON'T EVEN REGISTER WITH ME, BECAUSE I DO NOT THINK OF DOING THOSE 
THINGS !   Case in point:  It has taken me 50 YEARS to figure OUT THESE EVILS, and THEFT of my goodness, for their 'materiality,' power that is NO POWER by degradation, of themselves and ME, and the Universe of unconditional love, ITSELF.

THIS IS CRAP, AND COMPLETELY UNJUST, that I have been raped and lied to repeatedly, by the lowest of the low of imbecile 'women' on this planet.  And ALL OF YOU NEED the INFORMATION, but nothing CHANGES MY PLIGHT, shall we call it THAT ? ? ?  Nor, does anything ever turn my unconditional love, back into LOVE for myself, and toward all other human(e)s... AND I have been forced to WASTE MY WHOLE ADULT LIFE ON THIS BLOODY BULLSHIT ?????????  FUCK YOU ALL YOUR HARD-HEARTED, BELLIGERENT, IGNORANT, STUPIDITY...

I HATE THIS EARTH, AND ALL OF YOU WHO PLAY THEIR STUPID GAME WITH THEM, THE SATANIC CATHOLIC CHURCH OF NAZI HELL ON EARTH.  Many of you don't even realize, or CARE that you are helping them to murder ALL OF US, by following them, their FILTH AND STUPIDITY that RAISES SATAN ON HIGH, that has caused ALL OF US to reincarnate with troubles NOT OF OUR OWN MAKING.  This Regime  kisses Satan's-ruling ASSHOLE, just like you are helping them to do... Bart-Mark-Law-Finger, IS the satan who is putting 'leaders' in 'power' with the child-rape-theft of my own soul by FIN-GER, (German ass-covering), and I and TIBET, have been MURDERED BY BART-MARK-LAW-DYKE-FINGER 360 degrees of 'world dis-order' SINCE 1959, when I was aged 3, and raped FOR their '3D'... control...

First of all, the Catholic Church and their current Nazi Regime, who are STILL RAPING ALL OF US on this Planet, accessed MY soul with child-rape by a 'female,' if you could call her that, and a VICIOUS DEMON she was, when I was age '3'...  [signifying 3rd Dimension Physicality, and the up-nose triangle of 3D EQUALITY...]  But then the question for me became, EQUALITY WITH WHAT ?  [Rape can NEVER cause 'Equality'...]

The Answers have been horrifying to me physically, psychically, and IN TRUTH, nothing short of exposing the Nazi Regime of Soul-Stealers for WHAT IT IS: A never-ending, reincarnating, raping-blaming-hell-on-EARTH, and in the WHOLE UNIVERSE, because one-bad-apple-DOES-spoil the whole BUNCH.  Not protecting babes, begets MONSTERS...

Is this what all you egomaniacs WANT ?  I don't.  And I won't be back to help you, again, EVER...  Not if I can help it.  I took on the problems of the world, as it was my nature to do.  And for it, I have received nothing but ENDLESS SATANIC HORROR.  And I'm really angry at all of you who think your shit doesn't stink and it is your right to behave in a nazi-box-following manner of IMBECILES, who have no honor, and no brains, no heart and no care, at all, and laugh at same.

I found out this past year, that my birth date is the SAME NUMBERS as EACH SIDE OF THE GREAT PYRAMID, 756.2 cubits, and THAT was a HUGE piece of the puzzle for me, as to WHY I was being forced to be involved with the 'Illuminati' psychically, at the TOP LEVELS, PAPAL TWELVE, FEDERAL BANK, PRESIDENTS, and EVEN SATAN HIMSELF... regarding things that I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ! ! !  And FULL OF 'Hollywood STARS' TO BOOT...  

Naming 'Satan' has been done here, but no one can catch him...  He's in too, too deep, and at the SUN, where he's made all his problems MINE, so that everyone blames ME, NOT HIM... and who IS the real nazi of Earth, who back-stabs me with 'Panama' finger-mommy, and Rhett, my first sex, Gone With The Wind, NAZI'S, and Rhett was GREEK, on top of it all, and he was the Paul Simon Song, "If I was the President," in Birmingham, Alabama, and Panama City, Florida.  

Do you believe in the FEMALE GRAIL, being raped by SATAN, 7th SON OF THE 7th SUN, NOW ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

YOU FUCKING IMBECILES.  

See, 'Satan' WANTS TO BE BABY-SAT, and have a BABY-SITTER FOREVER, so 'he/she' can be free to do ALL THE EVIL AND LIES AND STEALING THAT THEY WANT TO DO, UNIVERSE-WIDE, instead of the WORKS required FOR THEMSELVES.  

SO, THEY RAPED ME WITH MY BABY-SITTERS: Donna Rice, Todd Keys, Linda Foley (who committed suicide by stabbing herself on a San Francisco Street when she was about age 20, and I was 18), Cindy Cole who got in trouble at age 16 for 'phoney phone-calls' and harassing my parents' Real Estate Agent neighbor family, which I NEVER KNEW WHY SHE DID THAT ! ! !  And I told her it was MEAN of her to be doing that.  But I AM THE ONE WHO HAS BEEN FORCED TO PAY FOR CINDY COLE'S BAD BEHAVIOR, toward the 'Richard (Dick) Tipton' family, who was my classmate, (his elder brothers were Cindy's classmates), and when I was finally telling my friends at school about Cindy's bad behavior, Richard over-heard me, and I did not know him well enough to tell him directly, and so I was BLAMED for not telling on Cindy to my parents sooner.  I had NO IDEA CINDY HAD GONE SO FAR AS TO SEND THEM A WHOLE SHOE-BOX FULL OF PHONEY-LETTERS...  It HAS BEEN A COMPLETE NIGHTMARE OF ENFORCED 'WRITING MY LIFE IN DIFFERENT NAMED IN-K DKYE-RAPE-FINGER-DICK-PENIS-PENS, because of searching for these ANSWERS as to WHY there is no JUSTICE FOR THE INNOCENT, ONLY FOR DESTROYERS OF INNOCENCE.

Even now, I take care of someone who is mostly my own dad's energy, but within him is ALSO, my DEMONIC-CHILD-RAPIST-dyke-ignorance-of-a-soul, and he also contains my own mother's energy, and my little brother too.   HOW COULD THAT BE ? ? ?  WHEN HE IS 20 YEARS MY SENIOR ? ? ?   AND NO BLOOD-RELATION TO ME, UNLESS THE SATAN CHURCH OF BLOOD-LINES HAS BEEN DOING THIS MANIPULATION of putting Satanic Imbeciles, in bed with whomever they can trash, who is of the 'good,' and reverberating upon ALL OF OUR SOULS, AND WITHOUT LOVE, GENETICALLY, SPEAKING, FOR CENTURIES, AND MAKING ALL OF US PAY SATAN'S WAY, WHEN ALL ARE SATAN FOR LETTING THIS GO ON ? ? ? ? ! ! ! !
WHY IS THE CHILD THE ONE WHO HAS TO TELL ON THE 'BABY-SITTERS' ? ? ?  AND STILL, FOR A LIFE-TIME, NONE OF IT EVER GETS ALLEVIATED, 
NOR IS JUSTICE TO THE INNOCENT EVER 
ACCOMPLISHED ? ? ?  And in fact, the Innocent are made to look as if they are guilty for HAVING FEELINGS, and for DOING WHAT IS JUST ? ? ?  Not to mention, are we completely torn asunder with EMBARRASSMENT AT EXPOSING THESE FILTHY LIAR RAPISTS.  FUCK THIS SHIT.


I AM NOT GOING TO 'BABY-SIT' THESE SATAN RAPIST FUCKS, ANY MORE.

WHAT A HORROR THIS EARTH HAS BEEN FOR ME.  AND I DO BLAME ALL OF YOU CATHOLIC IMBECILES FOR THIS WORLD OF SATANIC BABY-RAPE, BROADCAST-FOLLOWING FILTH.  AND ANYONE ELSE WHO FOLLOWS, is only pandering to the LIFE-stealing, SOUL-stealing-AND-broadcasting RAPISTS OF THIS PLANET.  You're IDIOTS, and you think it's okay to be so.  It's INCREDIBLE.

I'm ASHAMED OF YOU ALL FOR LETTING YOURSELVES BE FORCED INTO FOLLOWING ANYTHING.  AND NOT LIVING UPON YOUR OWN HONOR TO ONE ANOTHER.  WHAT HONOR ?  THERE ISN'T ANY ON THIS EARTH...  I've LOOKED FOR IT, and never found it.  Except in a VERY FEW.  HAVE MANY OF YOU HAD THE KINDNESS TO BE HONORABLE AND HONEST WITH ME ?  HARDLY ANY.

In ALL of my re-incarnations on Earth, I have NEVER been any part of the Catholic scenario, AND was even KEPT AWAY from their scenario BY THEM ON 
PURPOSE ! !  NOW, I KNOW WHY...  Portions of the 'Holy Grail' DO EXIST IN HUMAN FORM.  WE DO NOTHING BUT THE GOOD, and PSYCHICALLY, which is what the Catholic Church KNOWS about us, our UNCONDITIONAL LOVE TOWARD EARTH, makes us work FOR THEM, psychically removing 'evils'...  But it does not last for long, because no one is HELPING US...  IT IS NOT OUR NATURE TO BE DESTROYERS, OF ANYTHING, OR ANYONE, EVER, AT ALL..  But the stakes have been so high in this incarnation for THEM, that for me, it has been nothing short of HELL to do all their work FOR THEM, ESPECIALLY ME being FORCED to work for my sexual-back-stabber, BART, and his Catholic HORDE, THE PIGS.  And COMPLETELY UNTRUSTWORTHY FEELINGS THIEVES, who make no feelings, no love, and STEAL IT FROM THOSE OF US WHO DO MAKE FEELINGS, and who DO CARE, AND WHO DO LOVE.

EVERYTHING THE ACTUAL GRAIL-BLOOD DOES ON EARTH IS FOR THE GOOD.  THAT is NOT SO of the Catholic Church of Child-Rapers, who have done THIS particular evil for so long, they do not CARE WHAT they have become, and THIS LIFETIME HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT A PURE HELL FOR ME, and the CHURCH IS CAUSING THIS HELL ON THIS EARTH, by allowing 'satan' to rape and lie to everyone with sex-theft of souls...  AND EVEN BEYOND OUR EARTH, IS BEING AFFECTED BY IT, A HELL FOR EVERYONE, EXCEPT 'SATAN'S' who don't care if they mislead and steal SOUL from the Innocent.  It is affecting EVERY STAR RACE...  Nor will they EVER CARE, as they do not want to FIX ANYTHING, EVER, as their 'gods' only wish to WIPE THEIR very ASSES WITH ALL OF US, FOREVER.  And YOU ALL are DOING IT, and EVERYONE I KNOW IS UNAVOIDABLY HELPING THEM TO DO IT, TOO.  I have not seen one, single, FREE, SPONTANEOUS SOUL in my WHOLE ADULT LIFE SINCE 1987, 22 YEARS.  They are not spontaneous, because they are playing a game of one-up-man-ship, that NEVER ENDS, and with NO FEELINGS IN IT.  They despise those who have feelings, because TRUE FEELINGS ARE WHAT CARRIES US WHEREVER WE WANT TO GO IN THE UNIVERSE.  And they STEAL FEELINGS by accessing souls with LIES FOR SEX-RAPE.

Over the last 200 centuries of their warring, raping, positioning, power-mongering, money-mongering, in-fighting FILTH OVER POWER, MONEY, AND 'BLOODLINES of BULLSHIT,' no less, they have affected almost EVERY SINGLE SOUL WHO RE-INCARNATES ON THIS EARTH, and that is ALL OF US.  And they DO NOT give ANYTHING for the GOOD of us, but ONLY UTILIZE OUR SOULS in THEIR collective, that INCLUDES and 'balances out' their EVILS, FOR THEM...  NOT, FOR US...  AND ALL, to our endless torment and torture whenever we reincarnate, and ALL OF US DO SO, the liar Catholic Church of FILTH ON EARTH, who have kissed satan's ass for so long, they don't have a god, OR a christ, except the one's who are swept beneath the carpet-baggers...

My first 'sexual encounter,' AFTER the child-rape, was with my first boyfriend in 9th grade, SCOTT.  It was only kissing.  The music associated with SCOTT was Elton John, especially the song entitled, "YOUR SONG."  He was blonde, his mother was red-headed, and his father had black hair.  He was not adopted.  

In 1996, I realized WHY my mother had introduced me to our neighbor SCOTT, BECAUSE OF the film 'Braveheart,' and the subsequent Presidential Election, that I FAILED MISERABLY TO BE ABLE TO PRODUCE NEARLY EVERYONE'S DESIRED OUTCOME, upon me, and that had fallen SOLELY UPON ME, with WHAT PEN-NAME, AND COLOR INK I WAS TOLD TO USE FOR SCHOOL THAT SEMESTER, 'THE CLASSIC STIC BIC'... After I failed at the pressures of the election upon me, Bic no longer made the pen called 'C-LASS-ic' but changed the name to 'Cristal Stic.'  ['Crystal' had been a child-hood school-mate, who taught me to read the word 'chair' in first grade...  And that name 'crystal' and the word 'chair' became clear to me much later in my life, TOO, but it is a 'secret' and I am not allowed to tell it, as I have been punished life-long for it, and it's not worth it to me to be punished again, for what I am not guilty of, which is NOTHING, for THAT matter...]  In 1998-99, when I had nearly finished writing my whole life again in 'Cristal Stic' In-K,  Princess Diana DIED.  The 'Diane's' in my own life have CAUSED me RAPE, or in one case, one raped me psy-chic-ally, to my shear surprise and disgust.  

In my life, From Wales, Tom Jones, was a particular favorite singer of mine, and who my father once brought me an autographed head-shot.  But a mortal enemy to me, also from Wales, 'Alex McGowan,' (Irish name from Wales...), the name, has caused me NOTHING BUT TROUBLE, and HARM, in his original, blame of me, hatred toward me, FOR NO REASON that I can figure out, causing me a terrible LUCID NIGHT-MARE of HIMSELF BEING A TORTURER, one night, and then in the real, the next day continuing it, (with his red-headed Irish ice-skater student 10 year old Whitney,) even SAYING THE WORD 'nightmare' AT ME, he did, and his following behavior of LIES...  (In the Lucid Nightmare, he was lobotomizing 3 men with a Robotic Arm, in an Oxygen Tent, and promising to do my 'surgery' which he never did...  He was the 'J'anitor' of Hospital in the Dream...  (Janet, my mother, and gate-opener of the demon child-rapist...  My mother, born of rape by Norman Baldridge, her 'father,' who non-forcibly raped his wife Viola Schnelle's younger sister, 'Florence' (Italy), at age 16 she was, who knew nothing of sexuality, begatting my mother, and Norman, IMBECILE and RAPIST, died in Mussolini's Italy.  Even the Old Testament warns of souls who are born of rape, as UNTRUSTWORTY, and Janet has been that to me...

In fact, I no longer love my family, which for me, is nearly impossible to have happened to me.  I no longer love anyone that I have met on Earth, another impossibility, for me, as I used to feel a sense of love for everyone, unconditionally...  And EXPECTED it returned from ALL OTHERS.  IT HAS BEEN TOTALLY DESTROYED, not only in me, but in ALL OTHERS TOWARD ME ! ! ! !   It's UNBELIEVABLE.  I have a few friends, but there is almost NO LOVE IN IT FOR ME, ANY MORE...  AND NO LOVE COMES TOWARD ME THAT MEANS ANYTHING TO ME.  The only reflection I can see, is my own, and THAT I DO LOVE, AND DO KNOW WHY...

But I don't love anyone here on Earth, unconditionally, anymore, as I used to...  And if it came down to it, and I can't hold onto the balancing of Earth for 2012, I will let it fall...  Because I should NOT HAVE TO BE DOING ANY OF THE HUGE LIGHT WORKS THAT I HAVE BEEN FORCED TO DO, FOR THE CATHOLIC NETWORK OF RAPIST, BROADCAST, SEX-MARAUDERS & SATANIC POLITIC WORLD POWER LIARS...

My mother was friends with SCOTT'S mother Francis (Scott Key ? ? ?, who wrote the Star Spangled Banner ? ? ?)  and in MY LIFE AS Todd Keys, who was also a "baby-sitter" child-rapist to me AND my little brother when I was 6, and Wayne my brother was 4, and who I had to tell on, and who tied his testicles / 'balls' in red rubber bands and made us TOUCH them.  Maybe THAT'S WHY I was FORCED TO meet Lucille 'BALL' when I was age 11, and who was with the Italian Henri Mancini when I was forced to 'meet' her... and WHY I've been forced to write down my life at least 20 times over since 1991, FOR THE PAST NINETEEN YEARS REPEATEDLY FOR SURVIVAL, in 'ball point pen' for their LIAR, MAGNETIC, BROADCAST, WORLD, PLANETARY FUCK UP.  God DAMN YOU CATHOLIC NAZI'S AND ALL OF YOU WHO FOLLOW THE SATANIC BABY-FUCKER BY DYKE-BROAD-CAST SCREW-UP WORLD OF DISORDER and FILTHY 'Leaders' who are nothing of the SORT.  

[I HATE YOU BIRD-FINGER SHIT-RAPE, and THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE, AND WHAT I MEAN.  Do you know that this ONE LIFETIME OF RAPE WILL cause me ANOTHER 3,500 YEARS OF MYSELF BEING RE-INCARNATED TO REPEAT ALL MY WORK, 
AGAIN ? ? ?  AND WITH NO HELP FROM THE 'POWERS' that BE ? ? ?]

This Catholic Church is THE MOST HORRIFIC BROADCAST LIAR SATAN I HAVE EVER WITNESSED ON THIS EARTH, IN ANY OF MY MANY INCARNATIONS HERE.  I'LL TEAR IT DOWN IF I GET TO...  WATCH ME.  AND ALL OF YOU BETTER STOP YOUR BABY-FUCKING WITCH HUNT TOO, you IDIOTS.

SCOTT'S father 'John,' was pretty intolerable to both SCOTT and his mother Francis, as he drank and beat them on occasion, I heard, but never witnessed, thankfully.  SCOTT grew into a 6'5" giant by the time he was 14 years old, the last time I saw him, when our families met up to ski for a weekend.  I never grew to more than 5'1.5", so we were not even close to a likely match for any future, in MY opinion, when I last saw him.  And we had nothing in common to talk about by then, as my family had been living in a different state from his for the previous 2 years. The next 2 years we lived in different states further, and when I was 17, at the University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, 1973 Homecoming weekend, (where Gov. George Wallace was at the Football Game that I did NOT attend, feeding a squirrel alone, I could only 'HEAR' him introduce the game...)  My parents and brother met me for the Concert that night of, Peter Yarrow (of Peter, Paul & Mary, who'd known my real father, deceased in 1971...), and Liza Minelli Concert that Saturday evening.  My mother told me that SCOTT had died, right before the concert started, hit by a truck, while pushing a motorless go-cart up the street, that broke every bone in his body, is what I was told.  I cried, as the lights came up on Peter Yarrow singing, "That's enough for me, that's all the hero I need be..."  [Big heroes in my life, ehyyy ?...]

My second boyfriend was GENE, parents were Mormon Latter-Day-Saints, but that didn't stop GENE from being his playboy self...  [And THIS is where the Genetic-Manipulation of the GAME, BEGAN, ON MY LIFE, AND TO THIS WORLD OF WHO-TELLS-WHO WHO-CAN-BE-FRIENDS, AND WHO-CAN-MARRY-WHO, FAT BULLSHIT, WITH NO LOVE IN IT.  And TONS of LIARS.]  The summer before 10th grade he used to fire-up the Doors, (James the 'brother's of the brown-anal-fucking Catholic Church, 'brother' of Jesus, and 'Joseph' of Arithmea.  I was born at St. Joseph's Hospital, in Kirkwood, MO.), Jim Morrison, the Charles Manson look-alike, LA Woman LP, to make out with me at puberty, as we were...  Basically, before I consciously remembered that I had been child-raped, GENE did what my child-raper had done, used his finger.  And later in my life, I can NAME THEM, THE RAPISTS, so did Bobby Cooper (1989), and David Webber (1991)...  [How do you think they GOT 'coupe's' and the 'world-wide-web' ? ? ?]  And it is STILL TO MY COMPLETE LIFE-DESTRUCTION AND EMBARRASSMENT.  I HATE THIS EARTH, FULL OF SHIT.

SO THERE IT WAS, TWO FINGER-FUCKERS as the first TWO sexual experiences in my life, FIRST AS 'FEMALE' and THEN AS 'MALE,' so that all I EVER GET IN MY LIFE IS BIRD-FINGER-DICK RAPE BY BOTH SEXES, no matter where I turn SOCIALLY...  And screwed to 'mars' on TOP of the Satan-360-degree of FINGER-DYKE, by my parents not caring about me, not one iotta.

AND my father's last name by his adoptive parents with TWO 'F's' in it: SHEFFER, and NO BLOOD RELATION TO ME, AT ALL.  I never knew any of his family, except his twin sister Maxine who married a Catholic Italian, and YET was divorced by him after 3 children, due to his finding a younger, prettier woman, etc.  His name was Tony LaNasa, and their children were Michael, Laurie, and Tony, my first cousins.  Michael turned out to be 'gay', and when my father died at his friend 'Mike's' house in 1971, Michael Jackson became famous, the same month, and both my Cousin Michael  AND Michael Jackson were from St. Paul, MN...  When I first wrote this fact on the internet in my website last year, Michael Jackson died within two weeks of my post...  Where do you think the 'Tony's' of the world-order of games COMES FROM... the grail-blood of my father, and his twin sister...  that also has fallen upon me...  And my brother's sons, my nephews are 'BEN,' and 'JACK...'   Do YOU THINK THERE IS NOT A REAL GRAIL BLOODLINE ? ? ?  I would never have believed it myself...  Not in a million years.  These ASSHOLES.

All the real, blood 'Sheffer's' whom I have met, have been BLONDE.  I have no blondes in my heritage, of the 2 generations that I know of, except perhaps the German Schnelle's, who were my Mother's mother, and her Irish, Baldridge father.  That makes me 1/2 French Canadian on my Father's side, and 1/4 each of German and Irish on my mother's side.

I CANNOT BELIEVE THE AMOUNT OF SUFFERING AND STUPIDITY THAT HAS GONE ON IN MY LIFE-TIME OVER THIS GOD DAMNED CHURCH OF BABY-FUCKING, SATAN ASS-KISSING LIARS.  AND ALL OF US FORCED TO KISS THEIR EVIL, ENDLESS, FOLLOWING OF DISRESPECTFUL FILTHY RAPISTS ON EARTH.  I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU ALL, and the imbecility with which you go about your nazi blame.  I'm not one bit sorry for any of you who think your shit doesn't STINK, because it DOES.  AND YOU YOUR BABY-RAPING, BROADCAST - FOLLOWING SELVES ARE TO BLAME.  SATAN IS YOUR NAME.